Hie Aunty Lisa
I was with my husband for six years and we have two boys together.
Towards the end of our fifth year of marriage I can’t tell if I was bored, lonely or unhappy – but I started searching for someone else. Eventually, I left hubby for the guy I am still with now and my husband tried for months and months to get me back and I kept leading him on saying I want him back too but I never got back with him.
Now I am just depressed. I can’t get out of this headspace of regret and guilt and I feel sad all the time, can’t look forward to anything in my life because I feel like I made this huge mistake that I can’t fix. I don’t know what to do. I feel terrible for what I did. I don’t know what to do to get out of this way of thinking.
My first husband has a new partner now and they seem super happy, I can’t be happy for him. He was recently promoted at his workplace. My new husband lost his job during Covid-19 lockdown in January and we are struggling to make ends meet. I wake up early in the morning and rush to Mbare Musika to buy tomatoes and veggies for resale. This useless man steals my money and uses it for gambling and buying beer.